The Gospel Comes with a House Key by Rosaria Butterfield, Free for CAPC Members
Butterfield isn’t proposing hospitality without personal boundaries, but hospitality that is open to having those boundaries widened for the sake of the gospel.
I realized while playing Fallout: New Vegas that I was bored. Savvy gamer that I am, I quickly pin-pointed the source of boredom to some of the game’s more monotonous features. Don’t get me wrong, there were aspects of the game that I found great—namely interactions with the competing factions and the cheesy plotlines that remind me of westerns I used to watch with my grandpa (I mean that as a compliment). These elements, however, were not enjoyable enough to make me overlook a particular gameplay feature that was boring me to death. After all games are supposed to be fun. I know the medium and I often take pride in pinpointing games’ strengths and weaknesses, so if I wasn’t having fun playing FNV it had to be the game’s fault. However, as I began to write a review of the game in my head and started thinking critically about my complaints, I realized I wasn’t having fun and it was my fault.
The gameplay element that was irritating me was FNV’s inventory system. There was nothing particularly radical about the inventory system, save for the giving weight to the ammunition you carry around the wasteland (in hardcore mode), but I found it particularly irritating. If you have played Fallout 3 or any number of similar RPGs you know that you have a limited inventory—there is only so much weight you can carry and consequently you have to decide what to pick up and what to leave behind—if you try to carry more weight that you can bear you become over-encumbered and move unbearably slow.
There are houses or rooms in certain towns where you can store your extra possessions so as not to lose them while simultaneously avoiding over-encumberment. Add to this the option of fashioning weapons and supplies out of various scrap parts found throughout the wasteland and I ended up with an inordinate amount of traveling between quests and my storage house. All of this inventory management and unnecessary traveling was annoying. Why didn’t Obsidian take a page out of Mass Effect 2 and streamline the inventory system so I could just step out and enjoy exploring the wastes?
You may think I am weird for blaming this on Obsidian but my guess is that you probably sympathize with my frustration because we gamers are trained to champion fun and blame the developers when we are bored. As I was slamming FNV in my imaginary game review, I realized that my biggest complaint against the game, the one that was turning life in the wastes into monotonous inventory management was completely my fault. I didn’t have to keep harvesting scrap metal or wasteland settler outfits to sell for 3 caps. I could actually pass up on things! When I made this discovery, I immediately loaded the game back up and started tackling quests refusing to pick up anything that wasn’t necessary and avoiding the temptation to travel back to my storage room in the middle of quests. When I met a couple companions who nearly tripled the amount stuff I could pick up, I relapsed back into my old ways and started hoarding every virtual possession I could find. Realizing this, I drank some coffee, woke up and redoubled my attempts to streamline my FNV experience.
The result of my amended game strategy and my refusal to blame Obsidian was that I began to appreciate FNV’s design and learned a valuable lesson about myself. I was exhibiting one of the most annoying traits of survivors of nuclear apocalypse, I discovered I am a hoarder. I don’t think I am in danger of having an A&E film crew come to my house but I am not a good manager of my possessions. I have two file cabinets in my home office full of notes on various lessons I taught or classes I took that I will never read again. I have a massive stack of papers waiting to be filed in those same cabinets full of unnecessary papers. When my wife threatens to throw away various food items I usually offer to immediately eat said food item whether I am hungry or not. I have strategy guides for video games whose consoles I don’t even own any more let alone the games, add to this the fact that I no longer like strategy guides (they are designed to make us lazy) and there is no logical reason my night stand should be full of them! I also have a road bike and a mountain bike in my garage that haven’t been used in years. And the list goes on and on.
It turns out FNV served to do more than entertain me—it was a catalyst to reveal my own shortcomings. What I detested about FNV was actually due to a personal flaw to which I was blind. Games are a unique medium because of the ways they allow us to interact with their world and their story. The easy thing to do when we are not enjoying a game is to blame its developers but this is not fair to the game or ourselves. Before we criticize a game’s makers let’s take responsibility for the way we’ve been playing. It could be that our frustration is born out of our own flaws. I love games, mostly because they take me to new worlds, but I want to grow to appreciate how game worlds can illuminate my own. You will have to excuse me now, I need to get to work on organizing my office.
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