Single, Gay, Christian by Gregory Coles, Free for CAPC Members
Gregory Coles’s short autobiography—Single, Gay, Christian: A Personal Journey of Faith and Sexual Identity—is wonderfully written, refreshingly honest, and deeply personal.
It’s refreshing to see someone stress the importance of memorizing poetry these days, as Brad Leithauser recently did in The New Yorker. He recounts the great Russian poet Joseph Brodsky, who made his students memorize roughly 1,000 lines of poetry in a semester (much to their dismay). In that vein, Leithauser describes the push-back he gets from his own students when he makes them memorize a single sonnet by Shakespeare.
So why even bother memorizing poetry these days? Here’s Leithauser’s basic answer:
The best argument for verse memorization may be that it provides us with knowledge of a qualitatively and physiologically different variety: you take the poem inside you, into your brain chemistry if not your blood, and you know it at a deeper, bodily level than if you simply read it off a [cell phone] screen.
Leithauser’s reason is certainly good, though I prefer the simplicity of his explanation of why Brodsky required his students to memorize poems: “[Brodsky] felt he was preparing them for the future; they might need such verses later in life.” The need for verse at some point in life… I think this is far closer to the truth of the matter.
Personally, I’ve found that I experience life much more richly and deeply when I can recall lines of poetry that suit themselves well to whatever event I find myself in. Last week, for instance, one of my best friends and his wife had a child. Childless and reserved about fathering children, I found myself the next morning wishing I had the British poet Philip Larkin’s unflinching words about parenthood memorized to help better grasp my own ambivalence on the topic.
I then turned to the American poet Donald Hall’s famous poem about parenthood, “My Son, My Executioner” (which I do know by heart):
Sweet death, small son, our instrument
Your cries and hunger document
Our bodily decay.
Ach, du: where to go with all these conflicting emotions? “Ich, ich, ich, ich, / I could hardly speak.”
Therein lies the beauty of memorizing poetry: when you can hardly speak, the poems you know—by heart or at least in spirit—speak for you. What Larkin and Hall felt isn’t precisely the same thing I feel about parenthood, but at least knowing of the poems, if not knowing them by heart, still set me on my path toward better understanding what was going through my head that morning.
We need poetry to speak the unspeakable, and certainly to speak for us when we find our tongues dumb and demure. And poetry will speak; it speaks when nothing else can be said for the time being.
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